Attempting to Write Again

Week 61 Retrospective

For reasons outside of the normal day-to-day, it’s been a hard and strange week. But, rather than inarticulately and vaguely trying to reflect on the past, I’m just going to focus on the future.

What’s up next?

Two weeks ago, while I was on vacation I spent a lot of time thinking and writing about my current career setup. This week, I’d like to publish the piece I started then—which will be the first non-retro, non-technical thing I’ve written all year (yikes).

The fact that it’s been so long since I’ve written anything has created a challenging psychological barrier for me. On the one hand, it’s been so long that I feel I should produce something really good. On the other, it’s been so long that I’ve almost forgotten how to write for other people—and the topic/piece is probably too focused on my own life. On top of that, it’s been so long that I’ve lost a lot of the thick-skinned resilience I built up to publishing things to the world and having them ignored.

But, I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s not going to be perfect—or possibly even good—but that shouldn’t prevent me from getting back on the horse and trying my best.

Reflections on this Process

I know my retros have been a little underwhelming recently.

I’m still expecting/hoping that this retro process will return to being something valuable in my life in the near future. But, for the time being, I apologize if you’ve been reading it with the expectation of finding something useful or interesting in here and been sorely disappointed. You and me both.

For now, onwards!